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Friday, November 16, 2007
me, my scrapdiary, and "sajak abangku'..

collage of my scrapbooks and diaries

With all the crisis that has been going on in my family, till up to now, suddenly urged me to look for my scrapbooks i kept for years. Being a doodler, my scrap ie diary is always amazingly messy but artistic..nevertheless, one article really touched me. Eventhough some of the words are really out of place, corny and somewhat cheesy, I remembered i was 13 when i wrote this. Here it is word for word directly from my scrapjunk diary:


Abang.
Bilakan engkau akan menjelma lagi
Di dalam hidupku
Bilakah engkau akan ketawa dan bergurau senda bersama kami,
Walaupon kau ada,
Adanya abang hanyalah bagaikan suatu bayangan sahaja
Kau datang dan menghilang,

Abangku..
Ku tau isi hatimu
kau ingin bersama kami
tetapi tidak mampu
adikmu tahu engkau kecewa
dengan sikap kami sekeluarga
kerana tidak memahami
isi hatimu dan dirimu

abang..
aku rindukan kasih sayangmu
sebagai seorang abang untukku
yang pernah aku kenali dahulu

abangku
aku harap kau mengerti hatiku
adikmu yang sentiasa menunggu
saat dan waktu untuk bersama lagi bersamamu

oh abangku..
sebelum aku menghembuskan nafas terakhirku ini (walauweh soo dramatic siak)
Inginku ucapkan terima kasih
kerana engkaulah abang
dunia dan akhirat
sealiran darah denganku
benih seibu dan sebapa
abangku yang tersayang
kami sayangi kamu...

.. the reason why i wrote this, i thought by the time im 28, we'll reconcile, make amends and will play 'dam' like dulu2..but i guess, some things doesnt change...


~ { 9:07 PM }
vintage.. classical beauty..;