sighs..

i dun feel like eating..i dun feel like eating breakfast, lunch.. i'l just live on munching ice. I know its not healthy, especially in my condition, but takde mood langsung nak makan. Just terfikir pasal how stoopid i was to start it all.

I used to be a rebel, but nowadays like so lembik sey, im disgusted at myself! I stooped so low and telan evrything..and i did just dat becos of da kids. sighs..wonder if its a gud thing..but its gota be.

Watever..its killing me inside. Its frustrating to be a goody2.Its stressful to be a role model, i feel like turning the clock and start all over. I dunwanna lead anymore, its grr..oh dear, like a burden. I know its hard, to always show and set gud examples.. but Allah has gave me these responsibilities..i cant just give it up can I? sooner or later they'll know i was never an angel.. sighs.. sighs..sighs... no its not sighs.. its AAAAAAAAAAAAARRGHHHHHH...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
stressnyer aku!!!!