UUuuurrghhh.........!!!!!!! My procrastinatin habits are back and i tell ya, its killing me!! Now look at all the piles of filings to do..all the letters, all the bills, clothes lying around..BUT.. the only thing i CARE to clean up is my dressing table..(and dunno waddaheck for..) rajin atur2 the many body butter creams.. (disposin yang dah due..) and susun2 the belambak new stocks of facial creams, body lotions, the soo many miniature perfumes, jewellery, boxes of jewellery..yang ntah bila nak pakai ntah.. rings..yang ntah bila nak pakai ntah..ubat2..and lipsticks..eyeshadows.. lip balms.. ( realise i have like 4 of diff brands and kinds..) Tempat tu je presentable..lain area mcm kandang kambing sey.. Mbeeekk...!!
oh well.. rite now i'm dirundung malang cos, NO. 1..... im dead broke! Secondly, my feet and fingers are bloated..Seriously..it looks horrible, i never experience dis kind of bengkak on my feet before..!! Scary i look like im walking with kaki gajah! Thirdly of cos, my procrastinatin habits are back..hopefully not for gud.. Then, i have delivaphobia..(hehe..ayat baru meaning takut nak deliver..kwang kwang kwang.., asal bole je aku!)
And gasp! Tadi my mum called to tell me she knows the WHOLE Truth!! (oh no... i can smell trouble...)
And then moving on to another issue altogether, i feel quite kesian for my dad. He felt neglected..and a lil down. Dah la ofis byk problems, at home pon kena suffer jugak. He pulak the type yang tak suke luahkan, and rather keep quiet. After she blurted about her 'discovery', she told me about Abah yang stressed and tertekan. Betul jugak kate my mom. You cant expect him to start everything. Or be a changed person just because of something he did, which wasnt such a big deal pon..He said all dat cos he was stressed up. He gave evrything. Well maybe except real good communication. (
Which he can never master..dari dulu sampai la skrg ni..!!) Tell me , wat does she get?Access to internets, hp, ape2 je...Then he found out his precious anak buat hal...of cos he melenting and terkeluar kata2 yang menyinggung..( and it wasnt even a bad word..i mean back at my time, he was way worst, i tell ya he is much much better dealing wif her..and she shud be bersyukur, at least! He is not the only one
entirely at fault,
you are too, my dear lil girl!) The reason he exploded was because of wat
u did kan?
Sometimes its hard to understand certain things. If u are in her shoes, u wanna rebel, cos u know rebelling means u can tell ur frens how terrible ur parents are and u have reasons to
puff or to do watever u wanna do. You tend to make a small issue such a big thing, forgeting the luxuries u are given, the love u had, the gud times shared. Of course i understand dis 'darah muda' thing. And yea... some parents just dun understand! Then again, if u are in his shoes... sigh..i dunwanna be in his shoes, cos i think i know how painful it is. Trying to pretend u have no problems but in fact, there are so many things to put right, all piling on ur head!!
Right noow i feel, if we wan them to understand us, we too have to take the initiative to be sensitive of their feelings. To understand them too. Knowing their expectations. Really, they dun even realise that their baby has turn into a teenage gal. Its all too fast and they still feel that she is still a lil kid. So..if she wanna be treated like an adult, she gotta behave like one sensible mature person. Stop bickering, answerin back, sulking, hate to do dis hate to do dat, hating the entire people in the house, hating to participate in chores, hatin to hear advices, cos hating will make one's life dreadfully really in hatred. And wen it happens, no one will ever listen. Cos they know how hateful u can be.
I know i used to get angry and condemn cos of his ego at times, but certainly, we still have to respect and to respect is cool.. Seriously, it is really uncool to blabber and talk rots about ur parents, or hate them. Its never right to throw away wats urs. To condemn. And if we dun like to be treated like dat, then we dun treat them likewise. Simple as dat.
Right now..my mom told me she wasnt really excited to go holidaying anymore. There are so many things on her mind, as well as dad's. Too many. The horrifying truth is out. Relationships tearing apart... sighs sighs sighs...
Let's hope and pray that everything will be put to right soon...
I stand in the distance
BYOBD.. So today..,18th April was the inaugural day for Bring Your Own Bag Day in Singapore and the participating retailers are:
Okay, i know its a bit ridiculous.But..i feel that y not a for a good cause? Take heed that proceeds from the donation will go to SEC, a registered charity, where they will use it to fund campaign and other environmental programmes.Scientifically, plastic bags begin their lives as natural gas or other petrochemical substances, which are finite, polluting, and increasingly expensive resources.
This Danish dah la tidur macam aeroplane, mengigau tak agak2 pulak tu. Nak talk in his sleep pon, at least perlahan la sket volume tu.He will speak soo loudly, (dunno what he is blabbering, terperanjat2 kan orang jerrr..Lmfao..) But nevertheless, i love his company. Getting Iim and Putri ready for another adik. So far, Putri is doing well, but this Iim doesnt cooperate DAT well. But I can understand his unwillingness to do so. Simple things like sharing, or being bossy, being difficult, BULLY..or just screaming to attract attention.. So far, i can tolerate, but..i dunno if i cud tolerate further tho..pray i will. I always have this habit of self-talk if i know i acted rashly, so it shud be okay. InsyaAllah. Lets hope for da best and i hope he will be a good big brother..
Just uploaded new songs in my imeem..again from local talents..new hip hoppers..i notice dis new dude Richard Jansen (left, yang posing perasan hensem tu..)not bad, a mix eurasian malay..he's got many kewl beats, but his voice a bit kemek la...he is one of the beats society's gang. I like My Cinderella tho..suits his voice..hehe..if i have time i'll upload more of his songs la ekk... (gotta wait for the song to buffer ..imeem ni suke stuck2 pulak skrg..haiz..) Oh yea.. he also sang a song with Sleeq (Hot Tonight). And cakap pasal Sleeq...
Manisnya Crescentians bertudung..
From Top Left : Yati, Ros, Hera
From Top Left : Suzanna, Nazlina, Yati, Me
SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU, Umi Nadhirah!! May you be blessed with good health, a good husband, and many many children..;) (From left: Myself (with Umi on focal black and white..ape dah..posing kejam mata pulak!) Hera, Ros, Yati)
