Omigosh... !!!

Found out dat Nana did not sleep home last nite.Was at the neghbours..what da hell was she thinking?! And wen i ask about her kids she replied.."at the baby sitter's.." Is she out of her mind??????!!!!!

Im not tryin to be prude or naggy (its scary though seems like i aged faster than her..but hey..) i have been there..u know..been sleepin around ppl's privacy and got caught in lil flings aand all..i know i have changed..and even i cant accept the new miss perfect me, but for the though of her kids, i guess she better think before doing things that cud affect Mum and Dad and of course her kids. Im not here to criticise her or to create a big hu ha over nothing..just that its like lookin at my own mirror.. lookin at my past.And believe me..its pretty scary. I know she wont do the worst that ive done before like dope and all.. but i just hate to see her in dat state.It worrys me really.The world is goin on a fast pace..anytime it can go crushin on yu..u never know wen u will die..and to me..life is so precious i aint gonna spoil it further ive done enuff.I have too many ppl dat love me..and especially The Almighty..He loves me and i dun wanna disappoint Him.And rot in hell.The best way is sacrification and pray for peace and love..especially love from the ones nearest to yu.Why wud u nid some other stranger's shoulder to cry on? I still have my Mum and Dad, my dearest Mum and Dad..to rely on while they live. I havent done much for them and i had always made them cry. So now is the time to cherish the moments wif em..the moments wif the ppl u love.Ur family, ur kids. While they are near..dun let them drift apart.
Well..i cant know wat's botherin her..but i know Mum , dad and her entire family cares. Thats all dat matters..But does she care at all?

back for good
let me heave a sigh...

finally i cud face the pc again..its been a bad experience i dun even wanna share it here in the blog.nevertheless im back after too much rest..and what i do best..dat is procrastinatin..

baby in me is well i hope..i havent check on her/him yet..but i know its alive in me..no kicks yet just i cud feel it..

lemme start updatin about Putri's success..she is 2nd in class..and dat is how we got the merit bursary from the school and cdac.she always makes me proud..i hope she will continue to do so..as she grows even if she finds out the horror thruth about herself..about me who she respects and love everyday..i hope she will still be the sweet lil gal i know now..and not turn crude like i how i used to be wen i sniff my teenage years.sigh..people change..all i can do is pray hard karma wont hit me.

wow..today i receive another reply from imran ajmain...the sweet (can i say ) crooner.. he asked at the last note.."so what do you do..?" sigh sigh.. hmmm..so what shud i say.. domestic engineer? UGH..

Whatever.. i've been havin dreams about my school frens..my school days...and this very spot of graveyard-like surrounds dream i had wen i was lil. I know it sounds funny but the place seems real and i always had dat dream wen i was young.Yea..same placce..same scenario..and i will be there alone..walking through it in amazement and curiosity. I havent had dat dream for a long time till today.i mean last nite. i woke up and stared at the ceiling hard and tried to revive it back.Where is dat place, really?